If I look back exactly a year ago the colors of Spring and Summer 2007 were faded in their colors. Not as bright and vivid as I usually experience my favorite season. On Friday 23rd it was my grandma's first death anniversary. Last year it was my mum who called and gave me the news about her passing away. Saying I felt numb is an understatement.
Although I had not seen her in a while I felt the incredible void she left. For a person who normally bounces back from the downs and tristful episodes life hands her, I felt myself slipping deeper into a pit of melancholy. Sounds dramatic, I know but I experienced the second half of 2007 without any luster, flavor and spirit. I blogged, but it's easy to hide your feelings behind a notebook. Blogging became a bit of my escape, because no one really saw how badly I was feeling.
Spring came and went, Summer blew past - I was questioning so many things in my life and feeling guilty for not being able to do so many things with my grandma. My job was dragging me down, working from home was taking it's toll. I was not going out as often as I liked to and shutting myself away.
Towards the end of the summer I took a serious step - I decided to make a change in my job. Without really having anything else I simply decided to take a break to get my thoughts, feelings and spirit into perspective. It was not easy. I am moody and Tom got the worse of it. One minute I was doing OK the next minute I was crying - Tom stood by me and tried in his own way to guide me out of the pit. Sometimes I refused the help and simply was happy bathing in self-pity and misery.
I have a few really great friends who did their best to help me. DR, IW, AK are just a few of my girlfriends who lent me a shoulder for support or to cry on, tried to bring me back on track. All with the aim to get me back to the bubbly person I normally am. I mean my nickname is "Champagne Bubbles" - given to me by a dear friend's older sister way back in high school. One person in particular surprised me with his support - an old buddy from the Doha College who believed in me and supported me with each mail he sent. KJ - surprised me with unexpected warmth and support. Thanks people!
I did eventually get back to the bubbly side of life. I like it here much better. I have a new job I am really enjoying with real life colleagues and real discussions. Spring is here again and I am experiencing it in it's fullest glory. I am experiencing the colors and the flavors again to such an extent it's like I am trying to make up for the time I missed last year.
So, I wanted to share the colors and flavors of 2008 that I am living to the fullest this year. Lilacs, runculus, poppies - brighter and more colorful. Tomatoes, raspberries, rhubarb - sweeter and more aromatic.
Just in case - there is someone out there who needs a little color and flavor in their life right now. Hope this makes you smile today!
Thanks to all my blogger friends who, in their own way, support and motivate me. To all my readers who give me a place to come and simply feel good here - thanks for your kind comments and warm compliments every day.
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